Stand and Deliver

long gone

2006-08-18T21:43:00.001-07:00

If you care to leave a comment I now reside @ markhinojos.wordpress.com!!!

DONE

2006-08-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

Time to revamp my blog, will post a new address soon!!!!

Thinking With the People

2006-06-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

These last couple of days have been an eye opener for me and some of my collegues. We have discovered and some may have discovered this allready, our educational system or let me just say our district does not want our people to think. The elites of today don't want to think with the people and they do not want to let people think for themselves. As a progressive educator and one that identifies itself with the oppressed I have learned that I need to continue to be a voice for the "rejects of life," and with the wretched of the earth"?

"The same is not true, however of revolutionary leaders; if they do not think with the people, they become devitalized. The people are their constituent matrix, not mere objects thought of. Although revolutionary leaders may also have to think about the people in order to understand then better, this thinking differs from that of the elite; for in thinking about the peole in order to liberate (rather than dominate) them, the leaders give of themselves to the thinking of the people. One is the thinking of the master; the other is the thinking of the comrade. "

"Domination, by its very nature, requires only a dominant pole and a dominated pole in antithetical contradiction; revolutionary liberation, which attempts to resolve this contradiction, implies the emerges during this attempt. This leadership group either identifies itself with the oppressed state of the people, or it is not revolutionary. To simply think about the people, as the dominators do, without any self-giving in that thought, to fail to think with the people, is a sure way to cease being revolutionary leaders." Paulo Freire

Human Beings or Human Doings

2006-06-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

" If my presence in history is not neutral, I must accept its political nature as critically as possible. If in reality, I am not in the world simply to adapt to it, but rather to transform it, and if it is not possible to change the world without a certain dream or vision for it, I must make use of every possibility there is not only to speak about my utopia, but also to engage in practices consistent with it. I feel it is essential to underscore, within the scope of my understanding of a human being as a presence in the world, that we, men and women, are a great deal more than beings adaptablt to the objective conditions in which we find ourselves. To the very extent that we become able to recognize our ability to adapt to concreteness in order to better operate, It becomes possible to take responsibility for ourselves as transformer beings." Pedagogy of Indignation

ABSORBED

2006-05-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

How can we sum it up? All those people who didn't seem interested in what God was doing actually embraced what God was doing as he straightened out their lives. And Israel, who seemed so interested in reading and talking about what God was doing, missed it. How could they miss it? Because instead of trusting God they took over. They were absorbed in what they themselves were doing. They were absorbed in their "God projects" that they did not notice God right infront of them, like a huge rock in the middle of the road. And so they stumbled into him and went sprawling.
Romans 9:30-33

Teachers as Cultural Workers

2006-05-13T13:52:00.000-07:00

This year was a huge learning curve for me as a first time educator. I have witnessed teachers dehuminizing my kids, teachers as poverty pimps, students not wanting to enter the classroom because they feared the authoritarian that led the class and the capatalistic view of administration. I thought I knew what "empowering students" meant but I took it into another direction a direction that has prevaled, but now having the insight on students empowering themselves I see it in a different perspective. A perspective I need in order for me to be a progressive educator, my students like adults, are easily diverted from tasks that take effort. Therefore they need to discipline themselves to focus their attention on the task at hand. A humanistic appraoch would be great but I need more than that, I need what I call a Human-Authoritarian approach. With this approach I can guide, liberate and create a pedagogical climate in the classroom and at the same time maneuver myself around as the authoritative figure in the room.

"By refusing to deal with the issue of class priviliage, the pseudocritical eduacator dogmatically pronounces the need to empower students, to give them voices. These educators are even betrayed by their own language. Instead of creating pedagogical structures that would enable oppressed students to empower themselves, they paternalistically proclaim: "We need to empower students." This position often leads to the creation of what we could call literacy and poverty pimps: While they are proclaiming the need to empower students, they are in fact strengthening their own privileged positioned."
Letters to Those Who Dare Teach (Paulo Freire)

Poppin' My Collar

2006-04-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

Well, now is the right time to listen, the day to be helped. Don't put it off, don't fustrate God's work by showing up late, throwing a question mark over everything we're doing. Our work as God's servants gets validated-or not- in the details. People are watching us as we stay at our post, alertly, unswervingly... in hard times, tough times, bad times, when we're beaten up, jailed, and mobbed, working hard, working late, working without eating, with pure heart, clear head, steady hand; in gentleness, holiness, and honest love; when we're telling the truth, and when God's showing his power; when we're doing our best setting things right, when we're praised, and when we're blamed, slandered and honored; true to our word, though distrusted; ignored by the world, but recognized by God; terrifically alive; though rumored to be dead, beaten within an inch of our lives, but refusing to die; immersed in tears, yet always filled with deep joy; living on handouts, yet enriching many; havingnothing, having it all.
02Corinthians 6.1-10 The Message Remix

Just a few thoughts on this battle we called life, personnally an internal battle, getting cought up huslting on my own, what was I thinking? Giving into my own rumors that I was dead, falsehood! The thought of being jailed and being mobbed of everything that I am, I can just see it trying to survive in a world that tells me I dont' even matter and I am just worthless what am I talking about, I have been living it. Moving on, immersed in his love and immersed in the love of others for me and being persistant on Poppin' My Collar!

Executers of Transformation

2006-03-06T16:24:00.000-08:00

Today was a day that I found myself uncommited to my students, I realized that I have to constantly re-examine myself. "Those who authentically commit themselves to the people must re-examine themselves constantly. This conversion is so radical as not to allow of ambiguous behavior. To affirm this commitment but to consider oneself the proprietor of revolutionary wisdom" (Freire)

My Future In The Classroom

2006-02-26T19:34:00.000-08:00

"For all these reasons, I must insist and reinsist on critical education. The argument that the teaching of content, deposited in the learner, will sooner or later bring about a critical perception of reality does not convince me. In the progressive perspective, the process of teaching-where the teaching challenges learners to apprehend the object, to then learn it in their relations with the world-implies the exercise of critical perception, perception of the object's reason for being. It implies the sharpening of the learner's epistemological curiosity, which cannot be satisfied with mere description of the object's concept. I must not leave for a random tomarrow something that is a part of my task as a progressive educator right now: a critical reading of the world, alongside a critical reading of the word". (Pedegogy of the Heart)

2006-01-30T20:05:00.000-08:00

For some of us we choose not to even want to exist. For some of us we go through life living on the sidelines (sideliner) and not getting into the game. This makes me think of the movie the Matrix when Neo has to make a choice to choose the red pill or choose the blue pill. One pill will lead to destruction and the other one will lead him to a life of liberation. It is difficult for me to not see enough transformation in myself as well as others. My biggest fustration is not seeing transformation in others and not seeing the friut they could be possibly be produceing. I guess that this is my own fricken issue, but I can't help giving a shit about people! Do I just stop shouldering this burden or do I do something! What could I do? What could I say? Could I pray more? Could I hang out more? What could I do?

INITIATIVE

2006-01-16T08:52:00.000-08:00

"You cannot follow God in neutral. God has created you to do something. It is not enough to stop the wrong and then be paralyzed when it comes to the right. God created you to do good. And doing this requires initiative. There is a subtle danger of hiding apathy behid piety. Getting rid of the sin in your life? Great. Now it's time to do something". Raphael Mcmanus (Chasing Daylight)

The Tree and its Fruit

2006-01-06T07:36:00.000-08:00

"A good tree can't produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can't produce good friut. A tree is identified by its fruit. Figs never grow on thornbushes, nor grapes on bramble bushes. A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from what is in your heart.
Luke 6 43:45

la lucha (the wrestling)

2005-12-25T12:24:00.000-08:00

Some say that this world is backwards and everything is distorted, off line I would like to call it. We have immense problems in our education system and people keep telling me that I have to be apart of the solution not the complication.Everyday we continue to search for the sign but the sign is us. As my wife and I have gathered @ Aqueous and with friends and family I am reminded that this journey is like a wrestling (la lucha). We wake up and it is a unending battle of the mind, addictions, and isolations. Life is a lucha for me becuase I am at times constricted by the mind. I am powerless and paralyzed when I am not in the word, dialouge, communion or community. It is in the word that I find hope, it is in dialouge that helps me to live a life of critical thinking, it is in communion that my suffering melts away and it is in community that I am liberated.

Powerless

2005-12-10T10:37:00.000-08:00

"Man has become free from the external bonds that would prevent him from doing and thinking as he sees fit. He would be free to act according to his own will, if he knew what he wanted, thought and felt. But he does not know . He conforms to anonymous authorities and adults a self which is not his. The more he does this, the more powerless he feels, the more is he forced to conform. In spite of a veneer of optimism and initiative, modern man is overapproaching catastrophes as though he were paralyzed". Erich Fromm Escape from Freedom

I don't remember who brought it up but at a Aqueous meeting someone talked about being powerless, and the more I ponder about being powerless, I ponder the thought that with out His power I am just paralyzed.

Revolutionary Leaders

2005-10-30T16:31:00.000-08:00

They forget that their fundamental objective is to fight alongside the people for the recovery of the people's stolen humanity, not to "win the people over" to their side. Such a phrase does not belong in the vocabulary of revolutionary leaders, but in that of the oppressor. The revolutionary's role is to liberate and be liberated, with the people-not to win them over.
Paulo Freire

Over the past couple of weeks which I will call my (Virgin Teaching Weeks) I have tried to win my students over with prizes and other extrinsic motivational items. What I have realized is that my job is not to win them over it is to help them win their humanity back. I have also learned that I need to learn how to fight alongside of their parents, if I can help liberate their parents we can start to chip away at a wall that keeps them from living a life of liberation.

Gordon D talking about what it means to fear the Lord

2005-10-05T04:50:00.000-07:00

Someone said to "fear" the Lord means to be in the presence of so much power all you can do is worship. The Hebrew word is not about "terror" but about "awe". The English language falls short here, because the word "awe-full" meaning "full of awe" is what we're after, and that's come to be mis-used to mean "very bad." Once you know the character of your Father--His love for you, and longing for relationship with you--then to "fear" Him is not that He's going to punish or whip you, but just an awareness that He's so much greater than you that you have no power in his presence, and in that sense, are at His total mercy. Of course, this is the natural state of every man when he was a boy before his earthly father. For a man whose dad wounded him deeply, to stand powerless before God called "Father" is terrifying. And he will preach accordingly, focusing a lot on "obedience," and "authority" ect., to avoid stirring the Fathers anger--the "wrath of God." A man who has taken those father-wounds to Jesus for healing, can separate his view of his earthly father from Father God, and see God as He really is, with a heart for you, not distant and angry, against you. He can preach accordingly, focusing on trust and sonship.

Ever wonder

2005-08-07T11:29:00.000-07:00

You wonder what kind of story is behind this man?You wonder what kind of life he use to have.?You wonder who he use to be? You wonder if he ever gets to eat a meal?You wonder if he is angry or if he is perfectly happy where he is at.?You wonder if he served his country? You wonder what went wrong? You wonder if he was really born on the 4th? You wonder where he sleeps. You wonder if he is a drunk? You wonder if he is better off here then there.?You wonder if he is filled with pain.?You wonder if he has any family.?You wonder if he is sick.?You wonder if he ever had a family? You wonder if he has friends?You wonder if there is any hope for this man?

My Wife

2005-07-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

This past couple of months has been very trying for me. Recia I just wanted to thank you for your patience and love that you have had and displayed for me. It is because of you that I am able to keep my head above water and not drown. At times I cried and became depressed but you where there to encourage me. I know you don't think you know how to encourage people, but you sure encouraged the heck out of me. Forever I am grateful and forever I will love you.

To Be Continued

2005-07-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

After weeks of trying to get to know Fernando I have discovered that Fernando is a very angry young man, this is not new for the the Latino and Chicano population. One thing that I did find out was that he always tries to impress his peers at school and he just gets laughed at. I don't know if it is the donut sized earrings he wears, the lisp or what but, last week as he made a presentation people continued to snicker and make comments out loud. As Fernando returned to his desk he was on fire because he sis so well. He told me that he was not upset anymore and he just does not care about what people think about him and his culture.

Fernando

2005-07-16T11:07:00.000-07:00

Last night I had class and it was a night that was going to be filled with presentation (boring). As people went up and gave their thoughts on theorys it was soon Fernandos turn. All through Fernandos presentation there was a group of girls that were laughing and being very disrespecfull. O ya these girls had already gone up and they did well, but they incorporated their faith and their local church. As Fernando finished up I new something was up. Fernando told me that its people like them that keeps him from going to church. He stated that he is looking for something differnt but is hesitant becasue the group of girls made him very angry. He said they were very disrespectfull and rude. He also said I don't want to be around poepl like that. "I don't want to be apart of the christian church if it is filled with people like that" To be continued

Tequila Shooter

2005-07-12T08:36:00.000-07:00

On the beach in Cabo, this guys name was Gordo (fatso) he would walk around giving people free drinks and he would also dance for you. As you can tell he was dressed up as the tequila shooter,

Skin boarding

2005-07-11T12:41:00.000-07:00

This young man was giving lesson on how to skin board! The backround is Cabo San Lucas!

On our way to Cabo San Lucas

2005-07-11T12:32:00.000-07:00

We had to take a ciyt bus to get to downtown San Jose, the city bus was like a school bus. Recia is pretending that it is all smiles but she is scared as heck because she thought we were going to get robbed.

Hotel Royal Solaris, San Jose, Los Cabos

2005-07-11T12:25:00.000-07:00

2005-07-11T12:13:00.000-07:00

It was windy one day in Cabo, our hotel was right infront og the side walk.

Its been a while

2005-07-11T11:49:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I last wrote, there has been a lot going on from vacation, the death of my grandfather to the failure of a test that would have allowed me to teach full-time in August. I don't know what to say about all this, I'm just trying to find myself. Pastor Billy spoke about new beginnings and digging and I just can't find my shovel right now. O ya I am aslo involved in an intense summer session at Azusa, I am taking a Psychology class and a class that will help me asses special needs students. I drive down to school on Mon-Wed and Fridays sometimes there are additional days. I only have three weeks left. Well I will get some pictures up and will post some thoughts as you have requested from your blogs.

2005-06-11T22:06:00.000-07:00

Recia ready to go home!

Posted by Hello

Srtanded

2005-06-10T14:57:00.000-07:00

Today was the last day for the students that I have been working with for about 4 months. Denise and I took them to Rusty's and they were able to make their own pizza. We then went and rented bikes from across the street and that was a hell of a good time. We busted one tire, broke the brake handle and jacked up a peddle. Then to finish it off we went to Cold Stone and had some ice cream,
As we said our good by there were tears and cheers, it was so hard to see them go. All you can hope for is that you made a big enough dent in their lives that they will stick to the path.

2005-06-09T14:25:00.000-07:00

smiles!

2005-06-09T14:11:00.000-07:00

Recia and I in Old Town SD

2005-06-09T14:05:00.000-07:00

Old Town SanDiego

2005-06-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

Ensanada

Dreams

2005-05-31T21:04:00.000-07:00

There are many dreams that I have and one of them is that men would give their lives to something greater than themselves. We are not called to live a life of greed and self-centeredness, but we can give ourselves to something meaningful and beautiful. Following him means we can invest in others, there are no benefits on this journey only wonderful responsibilitys. Dreams

What kind of mentoring would you most desire?

2005-05-31T20:59:00.000-07:00

Character

Skills

Relational

Intellectual

A glitch in the matrix

2005-05-25T08:37:00.000-07:00

Why do you do what you do? Why MUST we?

Be Spontaneous

2005-05-21T10:41:00.000-07:00

I guess I am just reminding myself that "Jesus didn't come to teach Christianity, but to announce that the Kingdom of God had drawn near." We sometimes get so full of ourselves that we think we are here for our selves but I promise you we are not. We are here foe someone else! I believe that we MUST lead the church to redeem the world, that we must live for something other than ourselves.

Mission is why church exists

2005-05-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

Community Building

2005-05-14T11:15:00.000-07:00

Just some thoughts from my day:
Community building begins , not in the christian culture, but out in the pagan world, among them.
God chose the exact moment and location for you to live so that you would have the optimal opportunity to find him and the most strategic impact to change your world.
Go and awaken the dead. Call them to life!!!

God is moving and he is not going back he only goes forward so we need to go forward and continue to follow him. What does this mean this means that we can't just sit here and wait for him to speak to us we just need to go. GO and become the hands and feet he has called us to be. I pray for a humanitarian movement in our city IV and the SB region. Who is on board, because this movement takes a person who loves to live and lives to love.

Blockade

2005-05-11T18:12:00.000-07:00

In a world that is filled with so many churches I have become a man that has become so angry at the church. I don't think that we are advancing the kingdom, I see the church as stagnate and so full of its self. As I pray and continue to seek Him I hope that through this that something great would birth out me. I just think we need to start being the church and that is hands and feet that just go and give our lives to the lonely, sick, disturbed, confused, houseless ect.

Mission Movement

2005-04-30T12:27:00.000-07:00

"The person who is compelled by love to reach the outsider is the right kind of person around which to create a passionate missional community or structure.
A cultural architect is one who understands that the role of a leader is to create a missional culture. This missional culture is one that legitimizes decisions that "work" for the outsider, those we are trying to reach, over those decisions about what "work" for insiders only. A cool articulation of this value in a mission statement isn't enough. This architecture must be real. The person who MUST matters". Alex Mcmanus

Sunday Bloody Sunday

2005-04-17T19:43:00.000-07:00

i, i'm a one way motorway
i'm the one that drives away
then follows you back home
i, i'm a street light shining
i'm a wild light blinding bright
burning off alone

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time time and time again

i, i'm a new day rising
i'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
i, i'm a little divided

do i stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

Foo Fighters
Dedicated to my wife

EDGE

2005-04-14T17:42:00.000-07:00

Who's really on the edge? The person who has the right look, listens to the right music, goes to the right places, lives a libertine life? Or the person who's out compulsions motivated by an inner voice, whose life energy seems harnessed to some invisible power or force? secret: a really passionate person, someone who gives himself heart to something, is a truly rare thing, the guy who'll shape social and cultural environments. Whether that person is an artist, musician, social activist, doesn't really matter. Alex Mcmanus

CONFIDENCE

2005-03-30T20:30:00.000-08:00

trust or faith in anything
self assurance

FOCUS

2005-03-24T17:19:00.000-08:00

the point where rays of light, ect. converge;
any point of concentration, activity ect.
to adjust to produce a clear image.
FOCUS

5 ingredients to make a monster

2005-03-22T19:35:00.000-08:00

shame
doubt
anger
stress
impurity

Enthused by U2

2005-03-20T07:08:00.000-08:00

Man this week I was hit hard with Vertigo, it really sucked. I was down for three days and I hated every minute of it. I finally got back on my feet on Thursday man was I so happy to return to the norm. I don't know what is really going on because two weeks ago I was really down for 20 mins and at times I thought I was having a heart attack.
I called my wife at work on Saturday and she said that she had been throwing up. I tell you when you know a loved one is down and out, you rush to them or do what ever you can for them. Sometimes you just can't do a darn thing all I knew how to do was love her and hold her.

Foot Cream

2005-03-19T14:32:00.000-08:00

As I hung out with a bunch of peeps who could give a rats about him I started to think about my life when I use to act and live the way they do. There is know way in heck that I am judging anyone one here but I was taken back to my past and the times when i had no time for him. There are so many people out there who are full of themselves that it makes me sick and it makes me want to go (poo poo). I am starting to see with evidence that he is calling us to be advocates for his kingdom. As the night went on we laughed and ate and it was soon time to go home, I wished I could have stayed out all night like a rock star, but I had to take a test the next morning. As the night came to a close I know we made a dent in some peoples lives and the door is wide open for more conversation and community.

2005-03-17T21:23:00.000-08:00

Have you started to see the leader with in you?

Hammered On

2005-03-14T16:31:00.000-08:00

For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him. Philippians 1:29

The Wind

2005-03-14T07:04:00.000-08:00

In the beginning ... The earth was empty, a formless mass cloaked in darkness, and the wind of God was hovering over the chaos. Genesis 1:2

Drinking Beer on St. Patty's Day

2005-03-10T20:56:00.000-08:00

Why do I have a hard time getting people to attend our church but when it comes down to getting people together to have some green beer I have a line out the fricken door.

Be My Escape

2005-02-21T20:50:00.000-08:00

I'm giving up I'm doing this alone now
Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how
He's told me the way and I'm trying to get there
And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going
because I gotta get outta here

Jesus all I ask is that you turn our boys into men this weekend

The Baptist (Matthew 3:3)

2005-01-25T07:06:00.000-08:00

John the Baptist is the one Isaiah the prophet was talking about when he said: "This is a voice of one who calls out in the desert: "Prepare the way for the Lord. Make the road straight for him."
As I wonder about this scripture I wonder if we are suppose to keep preparing the way or start being the way!!!!

Serving 2 masters

2005-01-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

Lastnight after our gathering I met a man by the name of Sergio, he was drinking some dark beer which I can't even swallow at Ginas where we went to go hang out after our gathering. I started talking football with him and he seemed pissed and I asked him why he was ticked. He said because his jets choked against the Steelers in overtime. I asked him why he rooted for the Jets and he said he was born in New York. I'm pretty sure some of you who read this blog know this man, he is the only transient that hangs out by Gina's and the theatre, and I think he has a little ugly duckling looking kind of dog. As I woke up and got in the word this morning (man I can never sleep in) in our reading in Luke16-13 Jesus says "No servant can serve two masters. The servant will hate one master and love the other, or will follow one master and refuse to follow the other. You can not serve both God and worldly riches."
I made an appointment today with Sergio because I know he knows God and Satan but what grips me is that I believe he wants to know God but people don't give him the day or night because of the way he looks, smells and dresses. I know Jesus hung out with the hookers and the drugdealers why can't we???

holiness

2005-01-14T17:49:00.000-08:00

"A life pursuing holiness,says Peter, is a life that is sprinting away from ignorance, from small-minded living. It is a life that basks in the wonder of God Himself, drinking in the depth and the awe and the exhilarating pleasure that is found in coming face-to-face with humanity's purpose." Winn Collier

Luke 15:4-7

2005-01-12T18:26:00.000-08:00

Suppose one of you has a hundread sheep but loose one of them. Then he will leave the other ninety-nine sheep in the open field and go out and look for the lost sheep until he finds it. And when he finds it, he happily puts it on his shoulders and goes home. He calls to his friends and neighbors and says,"Be happy with me because I found my lost sheep". In the same way, I tell you there is more joy in heaven over one sinner who changes his heart and life than over ninety-nine good people who don't need to change.

What to expect

2005-01-06T21:19:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to really expect for the new year there are some things the He has put on my heart but I am really trying to go with them the right way. I am really praying that Jesus guides and shows me how to deal with issues that I have in my own life. My hope and prayer is to help people get back on their feet again. We know so many people that are hurting in many different areas of their lives that every time I get out and pray I am flooded with tears. As a man I need to stop taking my wife,life,friends,family,co-workers and neighbor's for granted. Jesus has been showing me that I matter to Him and the people I serve,for a long time I thought my life was just filled with a bunch of BS, but now I hope I can step up to the plate and start coming through for Him. <>

Gen 4:6-7

2005-01-03T19:31:00.000-08:00

"If you do things well, I will accept you, but if you do not do them well, sin is ready to attack you. Sin wants you, but you must rule over it." What grips me in this scripture is that sin wants me and I have to rule over it. In a time of my life when I feel so angry because I was not able to enjoy my childhood. I don't remember anything and I wonder if God wanted it that way. If so fine, but I have to stop asking the question WHY and start going forward. For me going forward means to start forgiving and live a life of forgiveness. I am filled with so much anger that the only way to survive is to walk closer to Jesus because if I decide to walk the crooked path I am just going to be like a dead man walking. My hope is that Jesus reveals His POWER to me in a phenomenal way.

1:45

2004-12-20T08:22:00.000-08:00

Today at 1:45 my family and I are going to the Dr. With my mom in Texas. Many of you don't know that my mom is very sick (mild scit, paranoia and depression). My dad said she has been like this for over 20 years and that's one of the reasons they got divorced. We believe that she belongs in a community that will better serve her needs. At home right now she does not get out and we fear that the voices will cause her to harm herself one of these days. My moms biggest fear is being put into the hospital again, she says that they did not treat her well there and it smelled like booty. We don't believe that she needs to be in a hospital but we do believe she needs help ASAP.
I don't even recognize my brother and sisters because they have never shown any love towards our mom. I thought I was going to be a sick dog because Recia was not able to be with me but I'm trying to StandandDeliver!

1:45

2004-12-20T08:06:00.000-08:00

Can we possibly?

2004-12-09T21:31:00.000-08:00

People these days are so passionate about many things. There are many that love to go to work because they are so passionate about their profession. My thoughts are, are we ever going to be passionate about truly encountering Jesus. I know many that we spend so many hours on one thing because we are so in love with that one thing. For example a majority of my time is spent riding my mountain bike (idol)cleaning it, washing it,and lubeing it. I spend so much time on it that it makes me sick. Yes it's a hobby but at the same time I don't spend half of that time seeking Him. My hope is that I can learn how to be with Him rather than wasting all my time polishing my idols.

Giving Him The Burden

2004-12-08T16:34:00.000-08:00

A couple of school days ago two kids entered the classroom with what I thought where huge molds that appeared overnight. As I examined their faces I noticed that they were huge scabs. I asked them what happened to their faces but know reply. So I asked the teacher and she said that these students are in need for so much attention and that they are dealing with so much pain that they use an eraser to scratch up their face. The word pain,hurt,and desperation have been lingering in my mind these past couple of days. My first question for Jesus is why is there so much pain and hurt everywhere you turn? (If you have the answer please reply ASAP) My hope is that Jesus will open those doors so that I will be fueled by Him to help people who are hurting and in so much pain.

What the heck does HE really want from US

2004-12-03T05:46:00.000-08:00

On my way home from school lastnight I started to question my walk with Jesus. I don't know if it was the cd that was on at the time or if it was God just trying to fuel me. I started asking myself what God really wants from me, and as soon as I had this God moment I started to weep. I have know clue what the heck was going on I just know that Jesus is fueling me up for something big. You see I pray for courage everyday, courage that I can bring the good news to La Cumbre Junior High. "But before they can ask the Lord for help, they must believe in Him, and before they before they can believe in Him, they must hear about Him, and for them to hear about the Lord, someone must tell them, and before someone can go and tell them,that person must be sent". (Romans 1o-14:15) My hope is that God is starting to show the evangelical side of me. I hope and pray that the Holy Spirit will be with on this journey at La Cumbre. Mark

Swimming with my Maker

2004-11-23T05:32:00.000-08:00

As I was swimming some laps yesterday I was thinking to my self on how I was filled by this huge body of water. The water was very warm and I just kept on thinking and saying to myself that I hope I can learn how to swim in a pool that is filled with the presence of God. I am hoping that I can swim in a pool of prayer, ongoing transformation, community, fasting and bible reading. I believe that if you are truly hungry enough I mean HUNGRY you can find be filled with His presence. I thought I was just going to the pool just to get some exercise but I also was inspired by a body of water.

Where Do You Start Where To Begin Whatever

2004-11-22T07:04:00.000-08:00

Well I have finally signed a contract with Blogger.com. I hope this is a life long contract because I have heard that it is pretty hard to keep this up. At first I did not want to get onto the blog spot but I finally got my head out of my bleep. I don't have any expectations all I hope and pray that I will be able to inspire some and catapult some to a higher ground. The reason I chose Stand and Deliver was because if I am not standing on Gods good news (bible) I will not be able to Deliver. We all have a calling on our lives and I believe God has called me to be a deliver. Not not like to deliver pizza but to deliver words of love,wisdom,hope,purity,truth and courage. In this journey which at times seems weary I pray to be encourage by other bloggers.